Like all inspiring music, Rachel Platten's Fight Song has put me on fire. When I listen carefully to the lyrics, I am forced to wonder: What is my Fight Song? Do I have one? The answer that my mind provides is the most obvious. I don't. I never was a singer. After several failed attempts of mimicking Taylor Swift, I buried that aspect...
I feel imprisoned! The walls that I'm trapped in between are closing in. With every passing second, they restrict inwards. There is nothing but darkness before my eyes. It makes no difference if I close them shut, or keep them wide open. All I see is black. The walls are ever so close. I can't breathe... I must break...free! That's how I imagine...
It is happening every day. I read today about a rare Swordfish that was caught—poor soul—and was sold. Our money-hungry capitalists will do everything to rise above their stations. Worse than even them, are the fishermen who come across such rare and endangered fish, and don't set them free, even after the education they're provided of handling said species. There was already the...
Re-enactment shows are on the rise. Almost all of the news channels that we see have one or another crime re-enactment show that is aired. The content that is shown in these half-hourly television shows is not suitable for under-18's, but no specific warning is issued as preamble to the episodes as they begin—to ward off the under aged. Some parents are ignorant...
Whatever hope I had of a successful social-life at campus, is long dead. Work is piling up, and I have yet to compartmentalize it for my convenience. The days of ease are gone and I am now stuck in a maze of bewilderment. There is just too much that needs my concentration. It's either my only two friends during the ten-minute breather between...
As General Raheel Sharif's tenure is closing in on its end, there is much speculation as to who will be his successor. Unlike most before him, the general has declared his disenchantment towards an extension; a privilege with which one can hold the mantle of COAS for longer than decreed. He has revealed that he doesn't believe in extension and will retire on...
As soon as class was over, we made our way outside. There were some errands to run, so we headed where needed. After our work was done, it was time for home. It was then that I saw Muzzammil—one of my only two friends—in the smoking corner, cigarette in hand. Now that I think of it, he just borrowed one, had some, then...
It was fast. In my mind, I quickly suppressed my vindictive tendencies, as I walked by the spy-car. Its indicators were blinking violently, all too inviting. I just chose to walk away. The spies that are obsessed with not seeing me succeed have been less effective lately. Whatever they do to anger me fails. I make sure that it does. I tell myself...
The new Disneyland-like theme park in Lahore has caused up quite a stir. The PM has struck a deal with a Chinese company, Golden Bean, and will—without hesitation—spend an estimated 32 billion on the project. Sources say that Lahore will have a Disneyland to call its own after two years of construction. No expense has been spared. Literally. This park will have its...
Oscar-winning paragon Sharmeen Obaid Chinoy has done the honorable. Using Twitter as her medium, she has given rise to a petition that might hasten the prime minister's actions of his resolve for eradicating honor-killings into oblivion. She claims that this petition will be sent to the prime minister himself and has urged us all to have it signed so that it can have...
Suddenly, switching to the comforts of technology and applications makes productivity and ease-of-access much more viable. I've chosen to download the required books for my semester, instead of buying hard-copies This transition is a little other-worldly. I do read books on my phone—have been doing so since ages—but they're just books. I can't expect questions to be asked from The Legend Trilogy by...
I have new demons to face. I am encompassed by overwhelming anxiety once my mind successfully determines the gravity of a dire situation. At first, I am angry with myself, then, I let that anger out by either self-talk or by engaging in an activity. It doesn't take much time to put out the fire, and soon enough, I am no longer burning...
The terrorists have struck AGAIN! The attack was all over the news. I only learned of it on my return from my university. Our intelligence agency had discovered about the assault and precautionary measures had been put into action. However, the terrorist organization responsible for the attack chose to bring about their destruction elsewhere. Had it not been for the security detail, and...
Youtube is back. It happened a few years ago when this website was blocked in Pakistan due to a specific blasphemous film. If you now try to access the abhorrent content, it will not be available; meaning that Pakistanis can enjoy the video-sharing website as they please without discomfort. Many here adore the music on the site, or are interested in comical videos....
What an exhausting day! The major I've chosen is major hard. Hours of sitting, hunched over keyboards and glaring into computer screens really wore me out. The logical, non-applicable bit is hard, and horrible. But overall, I think computer science engineering is amazing. I made three friends today. Well, two. Who knew I could be so confident? The rumor has been spread among...
The H1N1 Influenza, or the Swine Flu, is on the loose in Karachi. This evolved and more dangerous strain of the normal Influenza has been on the rise and is causing deaths almost daily. I read today's newspaper and learned that five died of this ailment. Because of the increasing number of deaths, the conscience of the government has been revived and special...
The Orientation. I didn't even have to try. I've already made enemies. There was help, too. From the rumor-spreaders. I'll undo what they did. I know I can. Can't wait for the classes to begin! What did I learn today? No matter what you do—or in my case, what you don't—you are destined to be judged and ridiculed. And if you stand up...
Tomorrow will be an important day. For me, if not for you. And for the rest that will be attending the Orientation session. It has been more than a month since I received my acceptance letter. I had been selected, it had said. I was sure that I would get in. This was followed by my sitting down and feeling intimidated by what...
The illiteracy that encompasses some selected areas of our land has been undergoing an unrestricted increase. I wasn't at all alarmed when I yet again came across an honor-killing tragedy. This time, the father thought of the daughter of his that he killed as his most obedient. Why kill her, then? Whether the daughters are romantically involved with strangers or not, all these...
Nine children of the cursed Thar were reported dead. It saddens me deeply how these children, who haven't committed even a single atrocity, keep dying like insects. The famine-gripped Thar has already seen too many infants die and seems to be destined to see even more. Our conscience-dead politicians—people here in Pakistan rely on their help, mainly, when in front of a peril—have...
I remember when I finished the last installment of the Harry Potter books. Disappointment took hold of me. I didn't want the series to end. It was right then when I wondered whether Rowling would continue the story with the children in lead. This was many years ago. She has let the series flow once again; in the form of the play that...
Another blast. If you're a foreigner who happens to have come across this post by chance, you'll find it very shocking, but if you're from where I am—specifically, a Karachiite—then this shouldn't be anything new. The terrorists that have been living hidden among us have yet again striked. The blast didn't prove to be fatal. Only two were injured, or so is being...
18... I didn't even know, couldn't even tell when my blank check was thrust into the palm of my hand; but then again, my parents were always very lenient and I never knew any restrictions growing up. And now I wish I had. Self-grounding doesn't help either. It lacks the parental element that I seek—I hate being a perfectionist! Even now, my parents...
It doesn't seem quite bygone when the pipeline near Karachi University burst and brought chaos in the area. And now, yet another has exploded. There are many other places in this city encountering the problem. The responsible authorities don't appear as responsible as they ought to. Karachi won't be as tidy as it used to be. That's guaranteed. What with the less fortunate...
I don't know where I'm going from here, but I promise it won't be boring. Painter, actor, and singer, David Bowie is being remembered everywhere. He died of cancer on the 10th of January, 2016. During his 69 years of life, he did the amazing and inspired many. The truth is, I didn't know anything about him until recently. His demise came as...
I don't even have to guess who the culprit is. There is always one anywhere I go. My bad reputation has little effect on me nowadays. The part of my brain that was responsible for scolding me and shaping me into something appealing for the eyes of people, has been dormant for a long time. He stood there, pretending to browse for jeans....
I saw it on every news channel. It had started by the man not being allowed to park his vehicle in an area that he wanted to. Or that's what they say. Frustration took over him and he became physically violent with the traffic police. I saw him wrestling, outnumbered but determined, still. They got him under control and then he was arrested...
No matter how much I've hardened, deep down inside, I'm still a human being. My barriers don't stand forever. They get broken down, and I have to reconstruct them. It is this very time of reconstruction that I am at my most vulnerable. This is the time I hate. Now is one of those times. I tell myself that I have run out...
A trip to the doctor's. Their omnipresence wasn't unexpected, of course. They're always out there. This entire city is in cahoots with them! I know my blog entries make me seem paranoid, but I'm going through this storm all on my own. So anyone else can't possibly understand. I was a fool to hope otherwise... After the unmentioned diagnosis, I and my dad...
I don't even know if the people I'm posting for are even reading. Keeping in my mind their tenacity with destroying me, I think they must know about my blog. They DO keep track of my online activity, and my every other activity, I know that for sure. So, yes, they must be reading this. So, I ask them this: Who made you judge,...
To be convicted of crimes that you haven't committed and be bullied because of those false allegations on a daily basis is floating in dangerous waters. The people that are ruining my life must know that what they're doing is simply...evil. This forces me to wonder: Do they really? It's high school all over again. I thought I was no longer an easy victim,...
People like me. Some never fight for the dignity they deserve. They cower and are frantic in their quest for shelter, basically anywhere they can hide. The world outside has them on a constant run. They are puppets to their puppeteers, practically carrying out all their commands. To mention the only: hiding and cowering. Saying nothing against the misery that is being inflicted...
It's been four years... My nightly escapades, and of the day, weren't scrutinized with the ferocity of today back when I initially began. The possible consequences of my activity didn't even occur to me. If only I had been as smart as I was considered at school. But I wasn't. I was oblivious to the horrors that awaited me. I would get out...
